Two months

So Friday marks two months of my injury. It is also the day I go for x-ray's to see if this long journey is over. It's been interesting. I'm so excited to be back to myself. I'm tired of not feeling or acting like myself, sitting around doing nothing gives me too much time to think and make things up in my head that aren't necesarrily true. I was gonna get into it but i decided not to but its definitely been the hardest thing i've ever done.

On the plus side, the weather hasn't been very summery so i don't feel like i'm missing all that much!
My dad set up the back yard for summer this weekend so i'm stoked, let the bbq's begin! Which i plan to do a lot. and get the fire pit going its definitly about time to start my summer!

So pray for more than positive results on friday so that i can get my cast of sometime next week!

Because i'm more than done with this!

The trials and tribulations of having a broken foot.

Sorry I've been missing for awhile. My laptop has crashed and there is no way of saving it. Well there is but the amout it will cost me for my tech to fix it is about the same worth of the computer. Even if  I do get it fixed it will happen again because my laptop is way to old and out dated.

So my last post was about how I broke my foot. And that was a month ago.
Now a month later my foot still broken and i'm just getting ready to be off crutches.
I'm not gonna lie its been one of the hardest struggles i've ever had to deal with. EVER. Mostly because I HAVE to be at home and listen to my parents fight or yell at me for really no reason, but I don't wanna get into that.
It's really been a fight to sit at home every day well usually 5-6 out of 7 days every week for a month. No one's really visited beside's lifegroup, but I understand their life has got to go on and they're all busy like I usually am, May's a big month and summer's just beginning and everyone is in job search/dilemma. Completely understand, it's just hard.
This is definitely one thing I struggled with. And God has definitely brought me to a new level of understanding. I think of Lisa and Mike who were in the hospital all that time and how CRAZY they must have been going. But Cabin Fever has really gotten to my head and I know the devil was putting those thoughts in my head to try and seperate me from whom I love most.

Crutches have also be hard. Really I just wanna walk. Try not walking for even a day. It's probably one of the hardest trials ever. I've had several fights with myself to even sit on the couch or sit down. My friends will tell you. When I am out I refuse to sit and rest because thats pretty much what I do all day. I will stand in fron of the couch for a good 15 minutes and stare at it before I actually sit down on it. I tried not to sit on the couch one for an entire day, I sat on my computer chair and wheeled myself around the house. But then my parents flipped out because the chair was marking up the wood floors and I am no longer supposed to use it extensively.
I have cried numerous times out of frustration, and cried myself to sleep just because i left something downstairs, fell, or for a reason that I really didn't need to cry about.

I knew I needed God, but i've come to the realisation how much I really need him on a day to day basis.
You would never think that doing nothing could affect you so much.

God's timing is perfect cause women's Conference could not have been at a better time. I have got more out of it then I ever have and am able to apply what i've learnt every day.

There was more but I cannot put words to it right now. But thats what my last month has been like, and where i've been

Philippians 4:13

Next two months of my life = crazy

I need to start actually saving again since my savings account seems to be dwindling and the not working for a month left zero dollars in my bank account. So i've been promised 3 eight hours shifts a week. Which is awesome. School 3 days a week. Church all day sunday. A day off? I don't think so, I don't think I even have 4 hours off. Two months isn't that long. Which probably means i'll be blogging less, but its okay thats what my 5 hour break is for. yeahh.

Its okay no stress, this will be my anthem for the semester. As i'm kinda intimidated in my art courses, i know i don't give myself enough credit for my abilities.

FOR I CAN DO EVERYTHING THROUGH CHRIST, WHO GIVES ME STRENGTH

PHILIPPIANS 4:13

You are my strength, Strength like no other.

I feel like sometime I put my prayers in here. This is like my journal so it works.

Today was...I don't even have words. I don't know how on earth I got through the last few days...well actually I do. God. Thank you for the strength over the last two days to be full of energy and be able to do everything with my all...except for sleeping that is.

I'll post tomorrow about what ever has happened over the last few days, cause theres one thing in particular i wanna blog about :)

Good night peaceful evening. I bid you farewell although I would love to soak you up.

And if our God is for us, then who could ever stop us

This morning i was thinking alot while sitting on the bus. Thinking so much actually that i missed my stop and had to walk back one. Anyways this was the conclusion of my clutter of thoughts. This last month has been so overly busy I have felt like i put God in a bubble if you know what i mean. Went on everyday kinda feeling like i wasn't relying on him and praying as much as i usually do. Looking back on the last month i came to an important realisation; even though I may not have felt totally intune with god, because i was so busy i was just able to trust my god instinct. I didn't over analyze, let my mind get in the way, I was fully just listening to what he was nudging me to do. Over the last few weeks the verse "My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness." 2Corinthians 12:9 has really stood out in my life. I don't even know how i finised all my assignments and made time for everything that needed to get done on top of work 30 hours in a week, between last saturday and thursday i had a total of 12 hours sleep in 6 days i was truly running on god and I hardly even realised it.









And if Our God is for us, then who could ever stop us
And if our God is with us, then what can stand against?
And if Our God is for us, then who can ever stop us
And if our God is with us, then what can stand against?