Sorry I've been missing for awhile. My laptop has crashed and there is no way of saving it. Well there is but the amout it will cost me for my tech to fix it is about the same worth of the computer. Even if I do get it fixed it will happen again because my laptop is way to old and out dated.
So my last post was about how I broke my foot. And that was a month ago.
Now a month later my foot still broken and i'm just getting ready to be off crutches.
I'm not gonna lie its been one of the hardest struggles i've ever had to deal with. EVER. Mostly because I HAVE to be at home and listen to my parents fight or yell at me for really no reason, but I don't wanna get into that.
It's really been a fight to sit at home every day well usually 5-6 out of 7 days every week for a month. No one's really visited beside's lifegroup, but I understand their life has got to go on and they're all busy like I usually am, May's a big month and summer's just beginning and everyone is in job search/dilemma. Completely understand, it's just hard.
This is definitely one thing I struggled with. And God has definitely brought me to a new level of understanding. I think of Lisa and Mike who were in the hospital all that time and how CRAZY they must have been going. But Cabin Fever has really gotten to my head and I know the devil was putting those thoughts in my head to try and seperate me from whom I love most.
Crutches have also be hard. Really I just wanna walk. Try not walking for even a day. It's probably one of the hardest trials ever. I've had several fights with myself to even sit on the couch or sit down. My friends will tell you. When I am out I refuse to sit and rest because thats pretty much what I do all day. I will stand in fron of the couch for a good 15 minutes and stare at it before I actually sit down on it. I tried not to sit on the couch one for an entire day, I sat on my computer chair and wheeled myself around the house. But then my parents flipped out because the chair was marking up the wood floors and I am no longer supposed to use it extensively.
I have cried numerous times out of frustration, and cried myself to sleep just because i left something downstairs, fell, or for a reason that I really didn't need to cry about.
I knew I needed God, but i've come to the realisation how much I really need him on a day to day basis.
You would never think that doing nothing could affect you so much.
God's timing is perfect cause women's Conference could not have been at a better time. I have got more out of it then I ever have and am able to apply what i've learnt every day.
There was more but I cannot put words to it right now. But thats what my last month has been like, and where i've been
