Too cute.

I'm a sucker for cute or funny animal videos. 

These are a few I enjoy. 

Thought i'd just share them.

Again

So I have to ask you to hold your laughter until after this next sentence. I possibly broke my foot again. The same foot. Actually the same bone. Thankfully it's not as bad as last time, but i'm pretty much going to be home on the couch majority of the time so it can heal properly before school. Especially because i'm pushing it so much by working full time because I can't afford not to on the basis that I need money and secondly, I don't want to be at home.

I'm just scared that everything I went through with it last summer is going to happen again. Especially with everything else going on right now the feeling i'm loosing everyone else is almost unbearable.

Fricken Cute

Also if this isn't the cutest thing you've ever seen.

I don't know what is. 

I could watch it over and over and over again for a whole day

….well actually I kinda have.

My problem when it comes to blogging.

It's come to my realization that the most common problem I have when it comes to blogging or writing at all is that I have to much to say and don't know how to rationally organize it so other understand. There are so many thoughts whurring and whizzing around my mind. I always set out to write about something then the subjects gets too vast or complicated that I just bother not to blog at all.

I've always been able to compose sentences well and have above decent vocabulary, I attribute that to being able to get me though english. My down fall has always been organization. I get so distracted by my own thoughts or rants. My emotions change within the second. 

I wanted to blog yesterday, oh did I want to blog. But anything that would have come off my finger tips would have been complete and utter rambles going in no direction. 

Yesterday I had trouble comprehending my own emotions. I felt scared, angry, sad, weak, strong, broken, alone, hurt, positive. You name it I probably felt it within the last 24 hours. I've been so upset all week I feel like i'm going to throw up all the time. It literally gives new meaning to being sick of it. 

I'm at that point where I just don't know what to do anymore. No matter how much I pray read my bible and tell myself otherwise, I can't even start to comprehend what's happening and why. 

I continue to tell myself that I am other than what's been spoken over me and I know in my heart that I'm going to be okay and I definitely know i'm not defeated. I just want okay to be right now, because i'm so done with everything that I feel sick. 

I had an incredible moment of weakness yesterday, and that's okay. The important thing is i'm going to get back up and fight. 

So Satan if you wanna throw anything else at my go for it. I may doubt or get knocked down for a day or two but you bet I will never be down for good. 

 

Love Came Down

If my heart is overwhelmed and I cannot hear Your voice
I’ll hold on to what is true though I cannot see
If the storms of life they come and the road ahead gets steep
I will lift these hands in faith
I will believe

I remind myself of all that You’ve done

And the life I have because Your Son

Love came down and rescued me
Love came down and set me free
I am Yours I am forever Yours
Mountain high or valley low
I sing out remind my soul
That I am Yours I am forever Yours






Bring it. Cause Jesus Christ has already won. 

Goodbye Wilbur.

Because It's going to cost the same amount to insure my truck as it does for me to go to school for one semester unfortunately tomorrow is the last day Wilbur will be on the road.

I've loved my little truck and i'm almost crying writing this. It's going to be weird not having my own car again, but this the life of a student. I'm going to be a lot more broke this year than I ever have been any other year of school, it's going to be hard with my parent's control every cent that I make. I feel like my situation feels like i'm having everything ripped from me right now, but I guess i'll have to learn to adapt and grow. Thank goodness I don't have to do it alone. I have Jesus.. and amazing friends. Right now I just have this pit in my stomach from 3 days of crying and yelling and fighting. School cannot come fast enough. 

Anyway before this turns into an unneeded blog rant, I'm really going to miss my car. Like a ridiculous amount. 

So. If you asked anyone of my best friend, up until today I thought I was going to merry Jef from the Bachelorette. Well, i'm not naive enough to actually believe it, but I think my friends were starting to think I was serious. I've never ever been one to fall for or crush on any celebrity of any sort. Even in high school, which is why I found this particular instance so hilarious and I think I played it up too much on purpose but it was hilarious. But alas the Bachelorette is over and Jef did win so I certainly don't have a chance.




unless.. never mind. haha

Sometime I find myself thinking about my future husband, and in all seriousness I think I could totally fall for a guy like Jef. Sweet, fashionable, daring, carefree unlike me. Someone who makes me do stupid things because i'm not an impulsive person. Like run out in the rain or just absurd things. I know whoever it is God has the perfect person out there for me. It's easy to get impatient, or doubt that i'll ever find him, trust me i've had my fair bunch of doubts, but I know God is taking this time to mold both him and I into exactly where we should be and need to be. 

Hey girl I put the stud in bible study.

These are too good. 

Anytime Joseph Gorden Levitt or Ryan Gosling.

Background Noise

I was hesitant to post another post with youtube video's of music..but what the heck, it's my blog i do what I want. So here's my summer playlist. I love upbeat music but sometimes for summer I just love soft music that you can relax to and these have been on repeat.

 

 Okay, that be all :)

JUST A THOUGHT

I revamped my blog layout.. and I

LLALALAALALLOOOOOOVE IT :)

Hopefully this will inspire me to blog a little more now :)

So prettty

You could say i'm obsessed with this song. Jason's Demo Versions are usually much much better than his album versions. But I was enjoying this song so much the other day on repeat in the car that I got lost by missing streets 3 times. 

Like a ton of bricks.

I'm sitting here having a pretty content night. Listening to a combination of Jason Mraz, Ed Sheeran and Mr. Ben Howard whilst knitting and pinteresting and enjoying some tea while i'm at it. Scrolling though pins of beautiful Interiors and old Architecture it hit me. Me, i, yes me, and going to be studying all this in a matter of a month and a bit. Whaaaat. 

I'm getting so excited to meet my class mates, go school shopping, and get all ready to go and dive in. 

I'm even kind of excited for the commute. Whether i'm going to bus or drive i'm excited. It's along way so i'll have ample time to knit read and listen to music. It will be some good down time to do what I like and spend with God. 

I cannot contain my excitement it's almost as if it's still not real. That I didn't get in. 

I still doubt, and of course i'm scared crapless. Just choosing the bode on the side of excitement rather than anxiety because I hope, scratch that, KNOW i'll be fine. 

Funeral Setlists

So I thought i would start off with something a little lighter and funnier to jump back into blogging. My thoughts lately have been jumbled and not really able to write down so some light posts might help me get back into this thing we all call blogging.

Yesterday I was skyping with one of my best friends Paula and I was explaining to her the song my brother told me that if he ever died had to be played at his funeral. This got us laughing and thinking what would be hilariously ironic to play at our funerals so here it is. Matthew's choice in funeral song mine and finally paula's. Hope this gives you a good laugh.

This is Matthew's choice. You need to move into the middle of the song to fully understand the ridiculousness, hilarity, and predictability of his choice. As he chose it he uttered the words "doesn't it just feel as though you're leaving something and entering something else awesome like HEAVEN"….then he started jamming..with his whole body.

This was my selection. Honestly I was laughing so hard, it was ridiculous.

And finally the song Paula chose. Figures it would be City and Color.