My hair is now down to my arm pits. I noticed this today, after many comments "your hair is getting so long".
And I love it. When I chopped it to my chin i also loved it, but i have just passed this awkward-what-am-i-going-to-do-with-you stage. So I gotta say i'm pretty stoked. I need to trim it so it continues to grow. I need a change I just don't know what. I contemplated going a medium blond, just to try it, I still might. We'll see what the new year brings for now here are a few ideas. Still not sure about bang, my hair doesn't like to cooperate. I don't know if i wanna dye it really dark or a really dark warm blonde
OKAY
I have to stop now.
I just want my hair to grow already.
I'm just getting super frustrated and wanna cut it all off again.
The last few days i've been super inspired. Probably has alot to do with these two books i've been huddled up in a corner reading. Those being The Bible and The Architecture of Happiness. I took time to reflect on what has happened this year. I didn't really feel like alot has happened but in reality way to much has happened. I look back a year ago from today, its amazing really.
So here's a recap of 2010 events and such:
Became part of the most amazing family made of some pretty amazing girls Finished my first Semester in University with an a, b, and c. Discovered so many more of my dreams, but I know that isn't even part of them. Experienced the olympics, which was one of the most patriotic things i think that can ever be experienced Reached my savings goal of $10 000 Seen two amazing people leave the country to pursue greater things than most people can imagine. Made a difference in someones life
And there's so much else I know I did. A year is such a short but long time.
And this is some of what I hope to accomplish in2011;
Grow more in God, but clearly that is a given
Have my lifegroup grow by 5 girls regularly coming out
Have Maygan and Breanna Regularly come to wildifre
See my Lifegroup girl start to give back. And be their generations leaders.
Finish my next semester with nothing lower than a B
Start my Autocad certificate
Finish my portfolio
Go out and talk to several local Interior designers
Go to another country. England?
Take a road trip
Get my N
Save 2000+ more dollars
Learn something new (piano, surf)
Finish an entire sketchbook
Spend more time reading less time on the computer\
Get my first tattoo or two.
It all starts with God and then me. I know I won't get any of this done unless I commit to it. I often write down what I want to change or do, or set goals for myself. I end up getting dissapointed becuase half of them never happen. Sometimes life gets in the way, and I have to make the effort to not let the less important tedious things stop this list from getting accomplished. Maybe not all this year but in the next few.
So i've been out of commision in the last weekish. Well cause of finals i had no time to blog. Then pretty much the day after finals headed to the island, where my Grandparents don't have wireless internet. They do have internet but I feel super rude sitting on their computer not engaging in family conversation, as I only see them a few times a year. And usually post at the end of the day curled up in my bed with my laptop.
Anways theres alot i've wanted to blog about so here's whats on my mind right.
As you've noticed I LOVE CHRISTMAS! Quite alot, there is one thing I dislike. How short it is, oh and how we never get snow. But I live for the lights, the mood, how all the hustle and bustle has this peace about it, how wishing someone a merry christmas at a starbucks line can just change their mood. All this I wait for all year round. One thing I don't like is how when its over its over. Boxing day comes round and its goodbye christmas spirit. Yes, christmas nowadays is alot of give me give me with most families. But in the shopping mall before christmas you can tell people are looking for specials gifts that are meaningful for the most part to the people around that mean the most to them. Whilst you walk in a mall on boxing day and its all about them. All the giving spirit is gone. And so too the entire christmas atmosphere.
I wish it could slowly phase out. Like how summer turns to Autumn, or Winter to spring. It changes slowly and you don't even notice the change. But I really wish it could stay all year long. Most may not know what christmas is really about, or they know but don't just truly celebrate the real meaning of christmas. At least they know there is a greater meaning, and 'most' change their spirits. Why can't people be nice and giving all year round. The world definatley needs a saviour
So I have Decided that as a 10 day countdown to Christmas I am going to watch a Christmas movie every night starting tomorrow night. starting tomorrow night. So here is my list of movies I will be watching:
10. Elf
9. Home Alone 3
8. The Origianl Rudolph the Red Nose Reindeer
7. Charlie Brown's Christmas
6. Christmas With the Kranks
5. The Grinch Who Stole Christmas
4.The Original Frosty the Snow Man
3. I'll be home for Christmas
2. White Christmas (the not black and White Version)
1. Santa Clause 1
These are my favourites, don't Judge me. Paula Sorry number 1 and 2 are my absolute favorites, so your has to go on number three. You're lucky it even gets in there as i've already seen it twice.
I apologize in advance for the downbeat tone of this post.
So tonight was our Church's annual Daddy Daughter Dance. I was asked to help in the kitchen and I said yes, as I always do. Later I realised, why on earth did I volunteer for this. It is one thing that always breaks my heart, when you're at weddings, debut's, or watching movies. You see I don't have the best Daddy Daughter Relationship. I know some have it worse, they don't even have a dad, and I am so thankful that I have a Dad that actually stuck around no matter how often he has threatened to leave us and just stuff that happened right after I was born, (which I recently learnt about) but thats gotta count for something right?
You see me and my dad haven't been close since I was about 6 maybe. Around this time was when he started heavily drinking, was never home, and started fighting with my ma profusely. And its pretty much been like that since. Half the time I think he wish I was never born, because I am not good enough for him. Which is why I am so abumdantly thankful that I am perfect in God's eyes and I have an amazing family of friends who give me more support than I could ever want.
There was a song or two that have some history that I left the room for (my brown eyed girl, and John Mayer's Daughter, aswell as Maroon5's Sunday Morning I can't listen to). After a while I did end up finding the whole thing absolutely adorable. Talking to Pastor Helen she said "There are somethings Dad will do out there for their princess that they won't do for anyone else". And its true, all the Dad's were dancing like complete goofs jumping up and down with their little girls. It was actually magical. Even the older daughters were getting down and goofy with their fathers. Its such an inspirtation to see such healthy father daughter relationships. It makes me excited for my relationship with my dad one day and the relationship my children will have with their father. I am just so thankful for my Daddy upstairs and that he's more than enough.
I love it with all my being. It is my utmost favourite time of the year. I wish it could be December ALL YEAR ROUND. There is nothing better, I even love the cold, the slush the rain. Call me crazy, but there's something magical about December, and its not only because of Christmas.
So because I've gone winter crazy its pretty much the only pictures I've been browsing. Heres some that make me happy :)
How can you say this doens't look fun
Goal this summer Go Sledding
AND go outdoor ice skating
Desperately want this sweater. Looks uber cozy.
Wish we could all be together doing this.
Love you C.H/G.T/L.A/P.B
Does this not just look so magical
I feel like I just want to go frolic
and that Narnia is on the other side of these trees
I'd have to say she looks super comfy.
Kina want this sweater
Like I said
Magic, no?
Looks like so much fun!
I wish we had a giant popular outdoor skate park like this.
Been working on it all semester with the same 4 other people and its weird to say its finally done. After meeting twice a week then spending late hours at each others houses near the end we all got to know each other pretty darn well. I'm actually compltely bummed out i'm not going to see them everyweek. They're all pretty sweet. You know that feeling in your stomach when something's about to change and you don't want it to, or someone is leaving. Your stomach just kinda feels sick when you think about it, thats how I feel. Its weird. We're gonna go out and celebrate being done the project, then hopefully thats not it. Man, this kinda sucks. Apparently Luciana teared up a bit, don't know if that was a Tall Tale by Peter though.
I found this picture and it made me dream having a library like this!
One with walls and walls of books. With rich woods and brick.
So I could go hid away...
In a chair like this and curl up with a good book.
Maybe find one hidden away, one from years back. With dust lining the edge of the pages and the cover worn with love.
Words are one of our biggest gifts. I love how a word, a sentance, or a paragraph can take you to a whole new world. Excite you, make you dream or ignite a passion inside of you. The book that I love the most for this is the bible. But I think God equipped people specifically with the skill of writing to spark the imagination to help you discover foreign lands and far away places. To inspire you to get out there and live your dream. Books are not just mean to live vicariously though.
I wish I was there right now.
Wandering the aisles, running my hands along all the textures.
Walking barefoot, feeling the rich soft carpet.
Like a kid in a candy store.
All the stories just shouting from their shelves.
I wish I was going to University in the states sometimes. Somewhere like Yale or Stanford. The buildings are so rich and luxurius. The mass of brick, the pillars, the arches, the architecture in general. I feel I could read in a feild in the fall for house surrounded by the beauty and warmth of the buildings and fall colors. Cozied up in jacket and a few layers of knits. Go class to class in those hallways rich with history thinking about all who have walked through here. Sometime I think I should go into architecture, but I really don't dream of myself doing that i'm just amazing by it and what can compliment it.
Just finished my final project for art. I will post it later. As of right now its on my phone. As I was working on it everyone was walking by and taking a double take and commenting on how good it was. One guy was like " i'm glad the Sibeal review my porfolio before this peice." It was definately good for my self esteem. I ended up with an A- in the class. Super Excited about that.
Just need to ace our project. Which I think we got at least an A on it, get at least 85 percent of Economics Final, then my Marketing Final should be easier than pie. If all those things get checked of my list i should have a good GPA for the semester. Good thing I have a week to study until both my finals!
But since i got out of class an hour and a half early i'm having my first taste of what my breaks between my classes will be like next semester. Not enjoying it so far. I have a 4 hour and a 1 hour break next semester. Right now i'm bored out of my mind and I do not leave campus for an hour. There is only so much to blog about or do on facebook.
Okay so like i promised here an actual post of what has been happening the last week or two. It has actually been to hectic to even collect my thoughts.
First of all I want to tell you all about Disney on Ice. It was Magical. Thats about the only word I can put with it. I went with my two Spanish second families. Well two of them were pretty much my actual family. The youngest that came with us was 16. I actually felt like a child again. I got so excited for every part and think I took like 300 photos. Which reminds me, I need to go through and post those.I wanna go every year. It reminds me of Disneyland. Which is truely the happiest place on earth.
I decided a few days ago that I want to go to Disneyland at christmas time with the 5 of us. Because those are seriously my three favorite things. Its not going to happen. Don't get me wrong I am going again. But when I go next it will be a road trip in the summer so we can take the coast highway hit the beaches do some surfing, [which I will hopefully be learning to do this summer on our island roadtrip], and do some camping.
Speaking of christmas, I am in bliss everyday. I love the EVERYTHING about christmas.
Well except how the economy has made its this 'gimme gimme gimme' season.
But I love that my family or friends are not like that.
I love spending that extra time with people in cozy environments.
And for me especially is the ferry trip on christmas eve then getting to my Nana and Papa's and watching Santa Clause 1.
Nothing beats Santa Clause 1. The others cannot compare, therefor I refuse to watch them. Then spending time with my family usually just doing nothing but relaxing for about a week. Christmas is honestly my favorite thing in the world besides Jesus. I think thats why I love christmas so much aswell is because it is all about Jesus and should be. Was just gonna go off on that, but I think i'll save that for another post in a few days.
Ending on a lighter note. I learnt the coolest thing last night. I downloaded an app for my phone that lets me control my Itunes. I have so far been using it to confuse the heck out of my family. I'm going to play tricks on my brother when he gets home from work. Its pretty sweet, Technology is amazing.
Okay so it has been way too long. I feel like i start every blog like this. But this time has actually been forever! School has just kept me way to busy. On top of that i'm getting 24 hours a week at work. Its pretty ridiculous. I think Yohann and Matt were like "oh, its finals for Nicole lets make her work 8 hours every day she doesn't have school so she can't study will drop out of university and come back to Mcdonalds" Yeah sorry guys not happening.
Hmm so update. Cause mainly I just talk about my life for Letitia and Chanel..and Gabbi and Paula. Cause those are pretty much the only people who actually read my blog i'm sure.
I'm so excited winter and December is finally upon us! It feels so magical, I just enjoy it so much. Put up all our decorations yesterday now it feels just right! Now just have to take on a week of projects! Oh my, I don't know where i'm going to find time to do my art. Since my marketing is pretty much taking over my life. But thats alright.
I am sad for the semester to end. I'm enjoying this semester besides my eco class. My marketing project group has become part of the class and i'm going to miss it when the project/semester is over! We all get along so well. We worked on our project for 5 hours tonight. By the end of it I was pretty much laughing at nothing cause i was immensly drained. And here I am still awake.
Anyways I cannot think of anything else. And i'm too tired to actually add pictures to this post or even change fonts. Wow. So g'night. Know I know what finals do to me. I will blog more tomorrow and update my events and thoughs over the period of the last week,
I love coffee dates. Such a good oppurtunity to catch up with those you haven't seen in a while. Or even people you see all the time but never really have the time to talk about whats going on in their lives. Its a good one on one quality time. Tonight I met with an old best friend Sasha, whom I haven't had an actual good talk with for about maybe 3 years. We occasionally talked at rugby but I think we still have some issues lingering creating some tension. Now we're graduated both of us have changed.
It was really nice to reconnect as we were pretty much inseperable for 3 years. At the begining of our friendship we attended the same church then a year later both of us stopped going. So obviously God led the conversation that way. And we talked about it for a majority of our conversation. It was exciting, she really wanted to come back, for the sake of her brother mainly. So I gave her a card and she assured my she was going to come out soon. So i'm excited for that.
This morning was just a chaotic mess. I'm not even going to explain it. After the fiasco of this morning I came home had a nap. Before my nap I prayed I would wake up refreshed and ready to take on the rest of the day; as it was only 7:30am when I got home from my mess of a morning. And God totally delivered as you can tell. They day was amazing. I always know when one part of my day goes horrible he's ready to rock my world in the other portion of it.
This is the theme song for one of my favorite shows 'The Buried Life'. About 4 boys who have created what you would call a bucket list and travel around North America and cross off one of their items every week. Aswell as every item they cross off they help someone else cross something off thier list. Now it is known thse boys are from around here. Vancouver Island or the Gulf Islands I beleive. I never noticed the lyrics to this song even though I listen to it all the time so here they are:
My life be like Ooh Ahh
CHORUS:
It's times like these that make me say,
Lord if you see me please come my way.
Leavin bread crumbs for when I stray
Rely on sacrifice and the price you paid
Feel me like a fingertip
(flow fingertip flow fingertip)
Sometimes I fall I slip
Got a heartfelt desire be more like you
Trying not to quench your fire by the things that i do
I'm on an island by my lonesome stranded
Low key and stayin' candid
Reflectin on the things I try my hand at
Search for the equations to persuasions I'm used to
Findin comfort in the zones of closet bones I get loose to
A mountainous fontaine,
Spinnin and monsoonin
Grinnin its high octane
This worlds out wacky
Rollin down the hills cause lifes a hassle
Encircled by my folly like a moat surround a castle
Stay afloat,
Catch a second wind thin is the air I breathe
Teary-eyed nose runnin, wipe the snot on my sleeve
I'm callin on my savior to be all that I need
Please forgive me my behavior had me lost at light speed
CHORUS
The fear of never falling in love
And the tears after losing the feelings
Of what you thought love was
Like the dirt still up under the rug
(My life be like)
Bad characteristics covered in Christ's blood
The joy of new birth and the pain of growing up
The bliss between giving my all and giving up
The highs and lows,
Paths and roads I chose
In the cold I froze
Trying to ease my woes
In this world of sin
Clothes to thin to fend
So to God I send
Words of help to win
In grumblings so deep letters could never express
So the sounds of Ooh Ahh beneath my breath projects
CHORUS
My life be like (Toby Mac)
My life be like ooh aah ooh
Dum dum diddy
Here comes that boy from the capital city
Last up on the Grits new ditty
But eight bars of the truth will do,
uh
I believe there's a pride thats stunning,
And I believe in the kingdom coming
I believe if you seek the truth,
You don't need to look far cuz it's gonna find you
So why, oh why, do I trip and stumble?
And ooh ahh as commitment crumble?
I can't believe that I'm here again?
PS.Its a good show you should definately watch it some time. Plays Monday nights at 10:30 on MTV
Yeah, thats my church.So proud to call my church home. Its pretty cool we have the oppurtunity to host this and have hundreds of people who don't know God in our building. Just being able to love on them, serve them, and just show them who Christians really are and who God really is. The place was packed to hear some awesome bands. Being in the Coffee Bar all night I couldn't hear all that much but I did hear some pretty good muffled songs. There was one thing that stood out to me tonight when I was cleaning up foyer. One guy was standing with his friends swearing then his friend just looked at him unimpressed and said "Dude, we're in a church show some respect." It definately put a smile on my face. And if this guy doesn't know Jesus, i'm hoping its a step in the right direction.
I'm gonna fill you all in on the rest of my day to since it was pretty rad, because at the end of a long day I just like to get the events down, cause this is like my little journal. Started the morning nice and early since my Ma had the day off too. Okay pause.I realised, Chanel, ever since you left i've started calling my mom, ma. Don't know why and I didn't realise it until a few days ago. It's weird. Unpause. We took off downtown to go visit my cousin who is expecting any day now. It was a great visit considering I havn't seen her since she's gotten pregnant, well actually didn't even learn she was pregnant until 2 months ago because my mother seemed to forget to let me in on this little fact. They're having a canundrum because they're having a home birth and two days ago their furnace kicked it. Appropiate heat is important to a home birth. They can't get the part in until Tuesday for their furnace and she's been having contractions since last night. So i'm praying for a donation of electric heaters from friends and family for this safety of their new child. Which the already have one daughter Juna. And its so cute because when you ask her "Where's the baby?" She goes to her mom pulls up her shirt and kisses then hugs her belly. Its absolutly adorable....i should mention their other daughter is 20 months.
Now i'm going to skip to after Battle of the Bands. This aparently is going to be a long post today was a super packed day. Where one part I was very mad at Rogers but we're going to skip that because I have already vented to a few about my frustrations and anger can eat you up, and its the devils work. So i'm over it. Done. Amen. aahaha.
Okay seriously. After BOB we came out to about 2 inches of snow I guess. It was pure magic. I got home and started writing my letters to Chanel and Letitia...and now I guess Paula's going to get one too. Then I realised how last BOB the bands the both of them were here in Canada. We would have all been together tonight. Probably jump in Hector blast the tunes and go to White Rock as usual. Tonight feels like the kinda night we would just sit in Hector and watch the ocean and play worship music and just sit with each other and God. hen go frolic in the snow, maybe build a small fort. Man I miss that so much, not the sitting with god part cause I do that all the time, cause I just can't help it. But the sitting with all if us in Hector having God time and just us time. Love you guys, you know who you are.
My Midterms are OVER. I am free. Since I am free today was catchup day. The last few weeks have been hectic with events, school and studying. Today was a chance to sleep in, relax, haveGod time, collect myself, then do some major cleaning! My room isIMMACULATE! It's pretty amazing really, my room is never this clean. I mean I can see my entire floor AND there is NOTHING on my desk. Yeah my jaw dropped too.
What's better to end the day than;
THE FIRST SNOW OF THE SEASON! :)
It feels like the holidays now!
I hope it sticks and I get to wake up to a winter wonderland!
I was browsing Itunes about a month ago and found this amazing pianist. Because I want to learn to play the piano so much, and will someday soon, it found his songs super inspiring. Paula makes fun of my because I kinda feel like I'm floating or running in a Field full of flowers when i'm listening to his music. His peices have a voice all to themselves. It just puts me in a complete sense of peace. And its so amazing how music can do that do you. A song can directly affect your mood, that's why i'm so careful to what I listen to sometimes. But you gotta check out his music. The stuff from his latest CD I couldn't find anywhere on youtube so this is from his last. I like his new stuff better. You all have heard his compositions before because he has wrote music from many people one being Celine Dion...haaha
Recognise this...
yeah i thought so. :)
He also co-wrote the official olympic song "I Believe"
We had our leaders dinner tonight. It was pretty rad. A house full of some of the most amazing inspirational people i know, what could be better? Jenna blessed us with a fantastic meal. I think its the best home cooked meal i've ever had, besides my momma's rice that I love so darn much.
Jenna and Koby took a portion of the night to appreciate us and speak into each of our lives, which was so inspirational. Sometime you don't realise how you look in someone else's perspective. But Koby also talked about disciples and how we're creating future leaders to meet our goals; bringing our youth into their roles as young leaders in their church. Thats definately been on my heart with my girls lately. Many of them are going into their senior years so the peer pressure is getting more intense for them to drink and party it up, and to ultimately stray from their morals. Which i know each of them has very strong morals. I'm proud of them, when they mess up they know and they fully trust us enough to tell us when they do. But I want ALL of them to one day be Wildfire leaders and that all starts now. Its our jobs to lead them up to that and lead them to what God has planned for them.
I have hope for these girls. No, more like i'm conifident in these girls that they have the ability to do more than great things and that one day they will be marvolous women of God even more than they are now. And that sometime in the near future many of them will be standing among our leadership team. I'll keep telling them that until i'm blue in the face.
I don't think my brain is able to absorb anything more on Micro Economics. I think it has reached it max potential. For the last 2 days I have been making notes, reviewing my notes, reading the textbook like crazy, working out questions, highlighting, re-highlighting and I don't think there's anything left to cover. Its been a hard realization that I could get high b's and A's in highschool without cracking open my book. Now I really have to work. Everyone says University is hard. Its not really, you just have to put in the work.
I went into my last midterm thinking i new everything and bombed it :S.
But I know for a fact that i wasn't as prepared as I am for this midterm right now.
So i'm sitting in the library looking at my notes then taking a break. Theres a guy at the table beside me sleeping looking at the ceiling with his mouth open. Its entertaining; wanted to take a picture for my picture of the day...but thats not really that nice of me is it.
Sam's surprise party was a success. Good Job to his PLBC friend who planned this shindig. He had no idea, whatsoever. I call that failure. Get it cause its was not a failure cause it was crossed out....yeah.
Got to know a few newer friends much better and played a pretty fun game called Apples to Apples, of which I had never heard of. It was pretty fun.
P.S. Paula is a big cheater. An obvious big cheater. But at least she's not one of those cheaters who when caught are like "NO, I'm not cheating"
Okay, time to blog. I dread this sometimes. I always do it right before I go to bed, in fact I am lying in bed with my laptop when I blog. Yet, once its done I'm glad I have done it. It's nice to just get thoughts and events written down. Also the fact I'm taking English next semester and this will help with my writing...or maybe not because I do not follow proper sentence structure, grammar, or spelling in these little spiels. I am well aware my blogs don't make a bit of sense at some parts, but did I not say I do this task in bed whilst I am longing for sleep to overcome me. It does help my flow, vocab, and creativity however.
So last night...what did happen last night. Don't worry I did not forget. I went to Jazz for a Cause held at Java Jazz Cafe, my dear friend Mia's family establishment. Sorry I like using the word establishment I feel sophisticated. To continue, it was a nice little fundraiser put on by a few people I like a real lot to raise money for Watoto.
Watoto is an organization in Africa that rescues many children orphaned by aids, abducted and put into child soldiery etc. They feed, nurse and educate the children as well as place them in a safe home environment with a mother within their organization.
It was a wonderful night of Jazzy entertainment, talent, friends, and good company. And man, my friends are talents. Tried to put up a peak of my talented friend Liz (chub - the one photographed with me to the left) but Blogger was being lame so pictures will have to do.
