So here's the thing..

So I have finally typed up my two weeks, date left blank. Resume written up, craigslist favorited, and an e-mail written to a ex-design worker for some insight.

Here's my game plan.

-As soon as my cast is off, (Hopeing for tomorrow), i'm booking three lesson's then going on standbye the next day my mom has a flex day.
-Get my Liscence this summer. Period
-End of July Start looking for a Job in the Interior Design Feild whether it be office work or CADD work, just something to get my foot in the door. Even if it's internship for free i'll stay at mcdonalds fulltime then work there part time.
-If it is internship hoping by a few months in i'll be able to get paid and quit Mcd's.
-If it happens to not be a internship and they'll pay me quit mcd's in September or whenever they start paying me.
-Summer saving : Laptop, insurance and parking and gas. So a couple Grand. My tax return money will help greatly. It also help's my paychecks full time are 800 dollars and i don't have time to spend them working full time.

So thats the plan, and guys if i'm not following it get on my like a fat kid at a pie eating contest.  :)

Summer Soundtrack

I don't know about you but i definitely define my season's with playlists! I love a new season because I get to change up my music to definitely suit my mood, and season's definitely affect my mood.

Summertime is good for upbeats, mellow notes, oldies, and for me country. This summer soundtrack consists of some of the following:

Brett Dennan
Bon Iver
Brad Paisley
The Beatles
Bedouin Soundclash
The Beach Boys
Elvis Costello
Tim Mcgraw
Norah Jones
Citizen Cope
Edward Sharpe & The Magnetic Zeros

And those are just a few.
So stoked for the summer.

Casted.

I thought i'd share the somewhat results of my x-rays yesterday. Sorry for all the posts, it's been awhile so trying to catch up.

Yesterday I had x-rays and an doctors appointment. I don't know the results of my x-ray's until next week. But my Doctor said that it looks good and wants me to start puttig some weight on it and take some steps around on the carpet.
He explained to me it IS going to be painful because i tore ligaments and they're regrown they're all really short and tight and they have to stretch out. That's where physio is gonna come in.

I did that today, but since I still can't move most of my toes its kinda hard to walk. It didn't really hurt. It was just hard in the sense that when you take a step you curl your toes to make a push off and i can't do that. When I take a step it kinda feels like I don't have any toes if that makes any sense.

So that's an update. I get my x-ray's back next week. And i'll update you then and possibly post a picture of my x-ray before and after if i can get them!

I"m done

I'm tired of crying everyday.

I'm tired of Choking back the tears.

I just wanna feel like myself again.

I'm done with all this mess

I'll get there

Sorry to shift gears a little bit, it's kinda personal but....its been on my mind and needed to be voiced somewhere.

Feliz Compleanos

IT'S MY BIRTHDAY
in just over two weeks!

I'm going to be 20!
Which is kinda crazy.
I kinda wanna throw a big bash, but I don't really know.
Is it weird to say i feel selfish having a birthday party?
Because I do. How ever much I would love a day all about me, I kinda feel that's selfish
I'm not trying to make anyone feel guilty, because everyone should have a day all about them, everyone deserves it.
Plus there's a lot of planning and such and then a lot of work hosting.
It doesn't necessarilly have to be about me, i just want a bash. Maybe i'll have an un-birthday bash
And people could sing "AAAAA very very unbirthday to you, to you."
That would be fun.

Anyways if i was having a birthday party this is kinda what i've jotted down:
Barbeque outside, with ton's of white balloons flowers and white lights in my trees.
Then MAYBE  a bit of an outdoor dance party, because who doesn't love to dance
and then a barbecue lasting all night ending in a campout/sleepover with ALL my girls

That would be my perfect birthday, maybe if someone convinces me i'll do it.

Ready, Set, Drive

I wanna go on a Road Trip this summer.
I just need to get away.
I realised i have not been on a trip of any kind, not even camping or a road trip since May long weekend Grad 12. So that's been two years. Two summer of doing nothing.
All my friend's have gone to Europe, Costa Rica, LA, or even the okanogan.
Me = Zip.
I think that's one of the reason's i'm going so crazy.
It's not just my broken foot that has made me feel like a cooped up chicken.

I wanna just take off on a Monday and come back a saturday or something in August.
Just drive with an outline of a plan but the will to stray from it.
Camp, pump up the music, be inspired, take pictures, Canoe, run in a stream, run in a field, climb a tree, Have a picnic, Climb a mountain, get lost, visit a crazy tourist town and act like a tourist, have several bonfires, one on the beach, have a water balloon fight.
And there's so many more but i'll stop listing.

Sigh

Random thought

I realised today i'm planning this summer like it's going to be the last. I just need to calm down a bit haha.
BUT i am going to try to fit in as much as I can. So excited!

My Achilles heel

You know in interviews the interviewee always asks the dreaded question, "what are you're weakness"
And everyone answers, "oh well I work TOO hard, it's a disease really," or, "My job gets in the way of my life," and the list goes on.
But people find a way to twist it into a positive thing. Not saying you shouldn't, you really are supposed to, maybe just avoid the obviously blatant boast.
Ironically I'm about to do just that.
Sometimes I am literally to nice, (unless it comes to my parents, which I'm working on)
I could never hate someone even if they beat me up and put me in the hospital
I can't hold a grudge what-so-ever, except when it comes to my father, but I'm working on that to.
Now those are the good parts of it.
Downfalls :
Won't ever stand up for myself
And this is the big one
Will let myself suffer to protect everyone else's feeling's.

Can you paint with all the color's of the mountian

So now that i'm up and kinda on my feet, i've been able to do a lot more around the house instead of just watching tv or sleeping. I've definitely wanted to paint. Especially since I now have a list of painting's i need to do for people. So yesterday I went go get all my stuff together to make a start on a peice or two. Got all set up to find my paint supply is majorly lacking. Looks like i'm going to have to wait a tad to get these peices started sorry guys! But i'm stoked to get a few peices done this summer and working a lot with some different media!

Two months

So Friday marks two months of my injury. It is also the day I go for x-ray's to see if this long journey is over. It's been interesting. I'm so excited to be back to myself. I'm tired of not feeling or acting like myself, sitting around doing nothing gives me too much time to think and make things up in my head that aren't necesarrily true. I was gonna get into it but i decided not to but its definitely been the hardest thing i've ever done.

On the plus side, the weather hasn't been very summery so i don't feel like i'm missing all that much!
My dad set up the back yard for summer this weekend so i'm stoked, let the bbq's begin! Which i plan to do a lot. and get the fire pit going its definitly about time to start my summer!

So pray for more than positive results on friday so that i can get my cast of sometime next week!

Because i'm more than done with this!