SHE IS CLOTHED IN STRENGTH AND DIGNITY AND LAUGHTS WITHOUT FEAR OF THE FUTURE

SHE IS CLOTHED IN STRENGTH AND DIGNITY AND LAUGHS WITHOUT FEAR OF THE FUTURE.

PROVERBS 31:25




Showing posts with label frustrated. Show all posts
Showing posts with label frustrated. Show all posts

6.18.2011

Casted.

Tumblr_kvr6jp638e1qzr6ooo1_500_largeI thought i'd share the somewhat results of my x-rays yesterday. Sorry for all the posts, it's been awhile so trying to catch up.

Yesterday I had x-rays and an doctors appointment. I don't know the results of my x-ray's until next week. But my Doctor said that it looks good and wants me to start puttig some weight on it and take some steps around on the carpet.
He explained to me it IS going to be painful because i tore ligaments and they're regrown they're all really short and tight and they have to stretch out. That's where physio is gonna come in.

I did that today, but since I still can't move most of my toes its kinda hard to walk. It didn't really hurt. It was just hard in the sense that when you take a step you curl your toes to make a push off and i can't do that. When I take a step it kinda feels like I don't have any toes if that makes any sense.

So that's an update. I get my x-ray's back next week. And i'll update you then and possibly post a picture of my x-ray before and after if i can get them!

4.29.2011

This months Yellow Brick Road

Almost two weeks since I have broken my foot. It has been interesting to say the least, and its DEFINITELY had its ups and downs.

Most of the time I'm super bored. The first week of relaxing was nice. Now I don't feel relaxed. I feel like a cooped up chicken. The first three days I just wanted to throw my crutches, now I'm getting pretty good at them. I've crossed pretty much everything off my list besides some books i wanna finish reading. I actually just wanna run. And this is going to be THE first thing I'm going to do. Maybe go for a walk. Frolic in a field. Do summersaults. I don't know just get out of this house. I really think this is the only reason I'm still working. Is to get out of the house. And I cannot wait for Sunday's a lot more than usual.


On the other hand...

I am SO thankful for everyone in my life being so supportive and visiting me and such. I especially like treats, until my mom started getting mad at my brother bringing me ice cream. But hey, I wanted ice cream and he wanted a reason to drive. It WAS the perfect solution at the time.

I am SO thankful I really am not in any pain other than discomfort. I really haven't even taken any medication or Tylenol since it happened. Actually even on the day it happened I didn't take anything. So blessed, I could be in a ton of pain.

It also could have been way worse. I could have fallen and broken more, had surgery, be in one of those permanent casts instead of my removable air cast (although i kinda wanted one of those so people could sign it), or had a permanent injury of some sort for it. 

And I'm BEYOND thankful that this isn't permanent. Some people have to live on crutches, in wheelchairs, in hospitals, and at a young age too. Yeah right now this sucks for me. But I think about all the people who live like this day to day. The people that have cancer and ARE stuck at home everyday like my friend Sam was. I'm always reminded that someone else ALWAYS has it worse. And God loves that person no more and no less than myself.

What I find the craziest is the God is performing a miracle on my right now. He is moving and healing the bone right inside me. I find this the craziest thing. I cannot hear, feel, see, know this is going on. Two days after I went back to the doctors he told me the bone moved by itself back into place. God made our bodies this awesome. Think about all the functions your body has. It does so many things just to keep itself healthy that you're not even aware of, it just does them by itself. I think that's pretty miraculous. Something like that HAD to be made by something. And I love my creator so much for designing and caring for my body. When we break ourselves, literally, we're not just broke like when you break a twig of a tree. I think that's something to be more than thankful for.

I really am the kind of person that's ALWAYS on the go, never home. So this is weird and frustrating for me. I've already learnt so much about God and myself and its only the first little while. Well not like this is actually going to be a long period of time. I have chosen that this is a positive, and yes I have moment's where I get frustrated and think 'this is such an inconvenience.' It's in the time of inconvenience and fear that you have the most opportunity to grow.



1.13.2011

Inked in Frustration


Today in drawing we had to use ink. Now when i say ink you are probably like oh she means sharpie. No i mean like liquid ink, diluted with water, and a paintbrush. So flipping frustrating, many people just couldn't get it to work. My first few were crap. I did however pick it up what seems to be after everyone else did, which added to the frustration. Although I don't feel as intimidated, at least not this week cause the people in my class are pretty cool and laid back. Made a few new friends, and finally introduced myself to a wonderful young lady Maddie who was in ma best friends class and she is also in my english class. I was going to take a picture of my work and put it up, but it was a nude model soooo awkward....*twiddles thumbs and looks into the sky* But here is what I had to do for homework. Its not the best because it was my first attempt at using the ink.
This was my second i like it much better!