Free To Dream

"The longer i keep putting it off the longer it can stay a dream and i can't screw it up" Ted Mosby

So much on my mind over the last week I don't know how many thoughts have been ricocheting around my head. And every day over the last week whether it be on the bus walking across campus God has strategically put little things in my place to stop me from thinking or the opposite make me think about something.

 This evening I read my message thread and just sat there and though how this sucks half of my best friends are one the other side of the world and how much I just wish we could all be together because we're so strong when we're together. I went down stairs and my mom was watching How I Met your Mother so I sat down and watched for a few minutes then Ted Mosby said that quote...or something along the lines. I realised this doesn't suck, this is amazing. Their living these huge dreams god has put before them and one by one all of us are gonna take flight on ours. Paula going to Bible school then/or Spain and I don't want Gabs to go but maybe Italy for her? Who knows maybe I'll end up in Ireland or Scotland or maybe just here. Everything has always pointed to Interior Design and I know that isn't the big picture. When your little you think your career is the big picture but what you do with your life and "what you become" isn't necessarily your career. I think Interior Design is just a start to what I really wanna do. Flip house and help families who don't have a home that adequates them. Like those who are special needs and need specialized homes, or people that have been devastated and need their home fixed; Something like Extreme Home Makeover without the show. I just need to keep praying and wait God will reveal things in his time I feel like what I'm doing right now is just right.

Anyways that's been my thoughts this last week. And how I need to study more instead of just two days before things.

Keep the Car Running

So even though I didn't get my license. On the eve of my test i was looking up a ton of cars I enjoy. I still want my '91 white Ford Ranger the most. But if not i wouldn't mind something with alot of character. A different truck, a little hatchback, or a Land Ranger...even those are expensive but theres a make like it that is relatively cheaper. Its all about character :)


LOVE LOVE LOVE this one right here :)


I want my car to read me. I want to pull into a parking lot and everyone know i'm definately there because of my car.




Darn I think i've been dreaming of driving for way to long. Time to work on actually getting my N.


But beside my '91 ranger. This is my all-time dream truck :)
A Volkswagon Caddy. So rare, so i'll just keep dreaming.

Love will come set me free.

It's been an interesting past few days.
My mind has been going a mile a minute I think.. God's been stirring something in me since church Sunday morning. It wasn't even really what Paston John's message was about, but he said a few things that really stirred me. And to tell the truth I don't even remember what it was. But after alot of confusion and feeling of inspiration over the last few days i came to a conclusion of to come over all this today. Why am I rushing? I feel like everything I do is rushed and I want it to happen right away. Why do I need to get into the Interior Design program next year. Why not the year after. Why not take the time and be the best qualified student in their application process? Why not take the time I want know to learn all I want and need to know. Learn piano, find a new job take alot of art courses next semester and then do the autoCAD CERTIFICATE next year. Travel a bit, get a car.

I noticed today on the bus when we were stopped at a light what ever i'm looking at I imagine drawing it, or am figuring out in my head how to draw it. Or when i listen to music i pick out beats. I wanna focus on the talent's I have a longing for but haven't quite discovered yet.

I feel right now god is about to change alot of my plans even more that I have already decided. I'm kinda worried it might be Interior Design, but maybe its cause i'm just over thinking things. I think I just have to prepare myself to possibly let it go cause it's been my dream since i was 10. Lately..well the last year and a bit i've been wonder, should I really do Interior Design? I think its all my over thinking in the area that has gotten me there. I still want it so badly and it still feels so right my head's just saying...maybe? I guess god will show me over the next little while.

I feel kind of releaved now that I've decided not to rush things.

Sit Back and Wave Through the Daylight

For the last few weeks I've had this longing to go sailing. Summer is almost over and I know I probably won't get a chance to fulfill this dream. I really really really want to go! Maybe in Setember? Cause I wanna go so very badly.