Time for a change

My hair is now down to my arm pits. I noticed this today, after many comments "your hair is getting so long".
And I love it. When I chopped it to my chin i also loved it, but i have just passed this awkward-what-am-i-going-to-do-with-you stage. So I gotta say i'm pretty stoked. I need to trim it so it continues to grow. I need a change I just don't know what. I contemplated going a medium blond, just to try it, I still might. We'll see what the new year brings for now here are a few ideas. Still not sure about bang, my hair doesn't like to cooperate. I don't know if i wanna dye it really dark or a really dark warm blonde

OKAY

I have to stop now.

I just want my hair to grow already.

I'm just getting super frustrated and wanna cut it all off again.

One strike of the clock, brings a New year.

The last few days i've been super inspired. Probably has alot to do with these two books i've been huddled up in a corner reading. Those being The Bible and The Architecture of Happiness. I took time to reflect on what has happened this year. I didn't really feel like alot has happened but in reality way to much has happened. I look back a year ago from today, its amazing really.

So here's a recap of 2010 events and such:

Became part of the most amazing family made of some pretty amazing girls
Finished my first Semester in University with an a, b, and c.
Discovered so many more of my dreams, but I know that isn't even part of them.
Experienced the olympics, which was one of the most patriotic things i think that can ever be experienced
Reached my savings goal of $10 000
Seen two amazing people leave the country to pursue greater things than most people can imagine.
Made a difference in someones life

And there's so much else I know I did. A year is such a short but long time.

And this is some of what I hope to accomplish in 2011;

Grow more in God, but clearly that is a given

Have my lifegroup grow by 5 girls regularly coming out

Have Maygan and Breanna Regularly come to wildifre

See my Lifegroup girl start to give back. And be their generations leaders.

Finish my next semester with nothing lower than a B

Start my Autocad certificate

Finish my portfolio

Go out and talk to several local Interior designers

Go to another country. England?

Take a road trip

Get my N

Save 2000+ more dollars

Learn something new (piano, surf)

Finish an entire sketchbook

Spend more time reading less time on the computer\

Get my first tattoo or two.

It all starts with God and then me. I know I won't get any of this done unless I commit to it. I often write down what I want to change or do, or set goals for myself. I end up getting dissapointed becuase half of them never happen. Sometimes life gets in the way, and I have to make the effort to not let the less important tedious things stop this list from getting accomplished. Maybe not all this year but in the next few.

Anticipation.

So i've been out of commision in the last weekish. Well cause of finals i had no time to blog. Then pretty much the day after finals headed to the island, where my Grandparents don't have wireless internet. They do have internet but I feel super rude sitting on their computer not engaging in family conversation, as I only see them a few times a year. And usually post at the end of the day curled up in my bed with my laptop.

Anways theres alot i've wanted to blog about so here's whats on my mind right.

As you've noticed I LOVE CHRISTMAS! Quite alot, there is one thing I dislike. How short it is, oh and how we never get snow. But I live for the lights, the mood, how all the hustle and bustle has this peace about it, how wishing someone a merry christmas at a starbucks line can just change their mood. All this I wait for all year round. One thing I don't like is how when its over its over. Boxing day comes round and its goodbye christmas spirit. Yes, christmas nowadays is alot of give me give me with most families. But in the shopping mall before christmas you can tell people are looking for specials gifts that are meaningful for the most part to the people around that mean the most to them. Whilst you walk in a mall on boxing day and its all about them. All the giving spirit is gone. And so too the entire christmas atmosphere.

I wish it could slowly phase out. Like how summer turns to Autumn, or Winter to spring. It changes slowly and you don't even notice the change. But I really wish it could stay all year long. Most may not know what christmas is really about, or they know but don't just truly celebrate the real meaning of christmas. At least they know there is a greater meaning, and 'most' change their spirits. Why can't people be nice and giving all year round. The world definatley needs a saviour

3, 2, 1, Blast off!

So I have Decided that as a 10 day countdown to Christmas I am going to watch a Christmas movie every night starting tomorrow night. starting tomorrow night. So here is my list of movies I will be watching:

10. Elf

9. Home Alone 3

8. The Origianl Rudolph the Red Nose Reindeer

7. Charlie Brown's Christmas

6. Christmas With the Kranks

5. The Grinch Who Stole Christmas

4.The Original Frosty the Snow Man

3. I'll be home for Christmas

2. White Christmas (the not black and White Version)

1. Santa Clause 1

These are my favourites, don't Judge me. Paula Sorry number 1 and 2 are my absolute favorites, so your has to go on number three. You're lucky it even gets in there as i've already seen it twice.

She's a Daddy's Girl

I apologize in advance for the downbeat tone of this post.

So tonight was our Church's annual Daddy Daughter Dance. I was asked to help in the kitchen and I said yes, as I always do. Later I realised, why on earth did I volunteer for this. It is one thing that always breaks my heart, when you're at weddings, debut's, or watching movies. You see I don't have the best Daddy Daughter Relationship. I know some have it worse, they don't even have a dad, and I am so thankful that I have a Dad that actually stuck around no matter how often he has threatened to leave us and just stuff that happened right after I was born, (which I recently learnt about) but thats gotta count for something right?

You see me and my dad haven't been close since I was about 6 maybe. Around this time was when he started heavily drinking, was never home, and started fighting with my ma profusely. And its pretty much been like that since. Half the time I think he wish I was never born, because I am not good enough for him. Which is why I am so abumdantly thankful that I am perfect in God's eyes and I have an amazing family of friends who give me more support than I could ever want.

There was a song or two that have some history that I left the room for (my brown eyed girl, and John Mayer's Daughter,  aswell as Maroon5's Sunday Morning I can't listen to). After a while I did end up finding the whole thing absolutely adorable. Talking to Pastor Helen she said "There are somethings Dad will do out there for their princess that they won't do for anyone else". And its true, all the Dad's were dancing like complete goofs jumping up and down with their little girls. It was actually magical. Even the older daughters were getting down and goofy with their fathers. Its such an inspirtation to see such healthy father daughter relationships. It makes me excited for my relationship with my dad one day and the relationship my children will have with their father. I am just so thankful for my Daddy upstairs and that he's more than enough.

Rocking Around the Christmas Tree.

I LOVE WINTER!

I love it with all my being. It is my utmost favourite time of the year. I wish it could be December ALL YEAR ROUND. There is nothing better, I even love the cold, the slush the rain. Call me crazy, but there's something magical about December, and its not only because of Christmas.

So because I've gone winter crazy its pretty much the only pictures I've been browsing. Heres some that make me happy :)

How can you say this doens't look fun

Goal this summer Go Sledding

AND go outdoor ice skating

Desperately want this sweater. Looks uber cozy.

Wish we could all be together doing this.

Love you C.H/G.T/L.A/P.B

Does this not just look so magical

I feel like I just want to go frolic

and that Narnia is on the other side of these trees

I'd have to say she looks super comfy.

Kina want this sweater

Like I said

Magic, no?

Looks like so much fun!

I wish we had a giant popular outdoor skate park like this.

Flip-flops and stomach drops

Marketing Project - Officially Done.

Been working on it all semester with the same 4 other people and its weird to say its finally done. After meeting twice a week then spending late hours at each others houses near the end we all got to know each other pretty darn well. I'm actually compltely bummed out i'm not going to see them everyweek. They're all pretty sweet. You know that feeling in your stomach when something's about to change and you don't want it to, or someone is leaving. Your stomach just kinda feels sick when you think about it, thats how I feel. Its weird. We're gonna go out and celebrate being done the project, then hopefully thats not it. Man, this kinda sucks. Apparently Luciana teared up a bit, don't know if that was a Tall Tale by Peter though.

Off to Never Never Land

I found this picture and it made me dream having a library like this!

One with walls and walls of books. With rich woods and brick.

So I could go hid away...

In a chair like this and curl up with a good book.

Maybe find one hidden away, one from years back. With dust lining the edge of the pages and the cover worn with love.

Words are one of our biggest gifts. I love how a word, a sentance, or a paragraph can take you to a whole new world. Excite you, make you dream or ignite a passion inside of you. The book that I love the most for this is the bible. But I think God equipped people specifically with the skill of writing to spark the imagination to help you discover foreign lands and far away places. To inspire you to get out there and live your dream. Books are not just mean to live vicariously though.

I wish I was there right now.

Wandering the aisles, running my hands along all the textures.

Walking barefoot, feeling the rich soft carpet.

Like a kid in a candy store.

All the stories just shouting from their shelves.

I wish I was going to University in the states sometimes. Somewhere like Yale or Stanford. The buildings are so rich and luxurius. The mass of brick, the pillars, the arches, the architecture in general. I feel I could read in a feild in the fall for house surrounded by the beauty and warmth of the buildings and fall colors. Cozied up in jacket and a few layers of knits. Go class to class in those hallways rich with history thinking about all who have walked through here. Sometime I think I should go into architecture, but I really don't dream of myself doing that i'm just amazing by it and what can compliment it.

Why do you let me stay here?

Just finished my final project for art. I will post it later. As of right now its on my phone. As I was working on it everyone was walking by and taking a double take and commenting on how good it was. One guy was like " i'm glad the Sibeal review my porfolio before this peice." It was definately good for my self esteem. I ended up with an A- in the class. Super Excited about that.

Just need to ace our project. Which I think we got at least an A on it, get at least 85 percent of Economics Final, then my Marketing Final should be easier than pie. If all those things get checked of my list i should have a good GPA for the semester. Good thing I have a week to study until both my finals!

But since i got out of class an hour and a half early i'm having my first taste of what my breaks between my classes will be like next semester. Not enjoying it so far. I have a 4 hour and a 1 hour break next semester. Right now i'm bored out of my mind and I do not leave campus for an hour. There is only so much to blog about or do on facebook.

Oh Christmas tree, Oh christmas tree.

Okay so like i promised here an actual post of what has been happening the last week or two. It has actually been to hectic to even collect my thoughts.

First of all I want to tell you all about Disney on Ice. It was Magical. Thats about the only word I can put with it. I went with my two Spanish second families. Well two of them were pretty much my actual family. The youngest that came with us was 16. I actually felt like a child again. I got so excited for every part and think I took like 300 photos. Which reminds me, I need to go through and post those.I wanna go every year. It reminds me of Disneyland. Which is truely the happiest place on earth.

I decided a few days ago that I want to go to Disneyland at christmas time with the 5 of us. Because those are seriously my three favorite things. Its not going to happen. Don't get me wrong I am going again. But when I go next it will be a road trip in the summer so we can take the coast highway hit the beaches do some surfing, [which I will hopefully be learning to do this summer on our island roadtrip], and do some camping.

Speaking of christmas, I am in bliss everyday. I love the EVERYTHING about christmas.

Well except how the economy has made its this 'gimme gimme gimme' season.

But I love that my family or friends are not like that.

I love spending that extra time with people in cozy environments.

And for me especially is the ferry trip on christmas eve then getting to my Nana and Papa's and watching Santa Clause 1.

Nothing beats Santa Clause 1. The others cannot compare, therefor I refuse to watch them. Then spending time with my family usually just doing nothing but relaxing for about a week. Christmas is honestly my favorite thing in the world besides Jesus. I think thats why I love christmas so much aswell is because it is all about Jesus and should be. Was just gonna go off on that, but I think i'll save that for another post in a few days.

Ending on a lighter note. I learnt the coolest thing last night. I downloaded an app for my phone that lets me control my Itunes. I have so far been using it to confuse the heck out of my family. I'm going to play tricks on my brother when he gets home from work. Its pretty sweet, Technology is amazing.

This would be my Dream

Disneyland at Christmas

Its final time.

Okay so it has been way too long. I feel like i start every blog like this. But this time has actually been forever! School has just kept me way to busy. On top of that i'm getting 24 hours a week at work. Its pretty ridiculous. I think Yohann and Matt were like "oh, its finals for Nicole lets make her work 8 hours every day she doesn't have school so she can't study will drop out of university and come back to Mcdonalds" Yeah sorry guys not happening.

Hmm so update. Cause mainly I just talk about my life for Letitia and Chanel..and Gabbi and Paula. Cause those are pretty much the only people who actually read my blog i'm sure.

I'm so excited winter and December is finally upon us! It feels so magical, I just enjoy it so much. Put up all our decorations yesterday now it feels just right! Now just have to take on a week of projects! Oh my, I don't know where i'm going to find time to do my art. Since my marketing is pretty much taking over my life. But thats alright.

I am sad for the semester to end. I'm enjoying this semester besides my eco class. My marketing project group has become part of the class and i'm going to miss it when the project/semester is over! We all get along so well. We worked on our project for 5 hours tonight. By the end of it I was pretty much laughing at nothing cause i was immensly drained. And here I am still awake.

Anyways I cannot think of anything else. And i'm too tired to actually add pictures to this post or even change fonts. Wow. So g'night. Know I know what finals do to me. I will blog more tomorrow and update my events and thoughs over the period of the last week,