Love will come set me free.

It's been an interesting past few days.
My mind has been going a mile a minute I think.. God's been stirring something in me since church Sunday morning. It wasn't even really what Paston John's message was about, but he said a few things that really stirred me. And to tell the truth I don't even remember what it was. But after alot of confusion and feeling of inspiration over the last few days i came to a conclusion of to come over all this today. Why am I rushing? I feel like everything I do is rushed and I want it to happen right away. Why do I need to get into the Interior Design program next year. Why not the year after. Why not take the time and be the best qualified student in their application process? Why not take the time I want know to learn all I want and need to know. Learn piano, find a new job take alot of art courses next semester and then do the autoCAD CERTIFICATE next year. Travel a bit, get a car.

I noticed today on the bus when we were stopped at a light what ever i'm looking at I imagine drawing it, or am figuring out in my head how to draw it. Or when i listen to music i pick out beats. I wanna focus on the talent's I have a longing for but haven't quite discovered yet.

I feel right now god is about to change alot of my plans even more that I have already decided. I'm kinda worried it might be Interior Design, but maybe its cause i'm just over thinking things. I think I just have to prepare myself to possibly let it go cause it's been my dream since i was 10. Lately..well the last year and a bit i've been wonder, should I really do Interior Design? I think its all my over thinking in the area that has gotten me there. I still want it so badly and it still feels so right my head's just saying...maybe? I guess god will show me over the next little while.

I feel kind of releaved now that I've decided not to rush things.